Well, considering I smoke, I'm all for it. I don't think it's right for ANYONE to tell what others what they should or shouldn't do to their body. If they know the consequences and how it'll affect their bodies, then let them make that decision. Honestly, I've heard this crap most of my life (I started smoking when I was 16) and any smoker will say the same thing. I really hate it when people push their ideals on you. It's unnerving and very fucking irritating. If people want to do that to their bodies, let them. IT'S THEIR CHOICE. NOT YOURS!


Using the Ed with cig icon for this entry.

TITLE IS PRETTY SELF-EXPLANATORY.

I felt the way Buffy does in GIF below when I read my feeds for Facebook a few hours ago.



My aunt writing an update that "OMG EDWARD CULLEN IS GOD AND NEW MOON IS AMAZING" made me want to re-think the people in my family that I find intelligent. I get that people love this franchise, but everything about it is wrong. I just don't understand why people love it so much, especially with what the message is behind the book. Hate me all you want, but it's crap. Pure and utter failing crap of dog poop. D:

Now I'm going to attempt my homework. I just had some things to get off my chest.

Oh, my BFF telling me he did coke last night? That also was a pleasant way to start my day. Quit being a fucking tool, get another job, go back to school. Stop using that shit to feel less shitty about your life.

people trail in and out of your life EVERYDAY.

and sometimes it makes me wonder... is it worth it to have friends? or get close to anyone? or to be kind to people that don't deserve it. i've had so many falling out with certain people and whether it's my fault or not is up for debate. the truth is that i know i'm a good person. and i don't need to worry or care or get upset if someone hates me. they're shitty people to begin with.

as i've said before good riddance to the bad people that god decides to bring into my life. it just makes me keep saying over and over to myself: I don't need anyone in my life, that doesn't want to be there. Cause at the end of the day, those people that stay around ARE the true friends.

this is it for me, for shitty people in my life. i'm starting to not care anymore.

good riddance, bad seeds.

ugh ugh ugh i have the flu and it's driving me crazy.

i had to miss class yesterday and i was at the hospital from 1-9. that place is absolute crap. i guess people that have the flu are not as important as people with sprained ankle. WTF?? im so pissed and i hate not being able to move, get out of bed, go to the bathroom and eat.


head aches, body chills, sore throat, mucus, running nose. :(

looks like i'll be calling in tommorrow even though i've only worked once this week. FUCK MY LIFE.

I can't stop listening to this song. I've been on this replay of this song for like two weeks, maybe. IDK. I get that so many people don't like this band. Chris Martin being a pompous asshole, the shit they said to the media is basically asshole-ish, whatever. Even with that, I think they are pretty amazing with the things they put out. I'll agree to an extent they're snobs, but whatever. Who isn't? IDK, I'm the kind of person that doesn't really hold what a band is portrayed outside of their music. If everyone thoughts of musicians that way, then lol noone would be liked by their fans. Whatever. I'm rambling. I just hate that they haven't attempted to tour where I live. Granted, it's trashy, poor and what you have it, whatever. Music appreciation is good enough.


I'm trying to avoid my homework like hell. I had a day off today and man, I can't stand how I'm like all, "Oh, sure I'll get to it on my day off". LOL, but I haven't done shit. I'm awful.

Procrastination is such a vile whore.

Probably half a day. I tend to watch some of my older tv shows on DVD alot and get through them pretty quickly, especially when I have nothing to do. I enjoy it too, I don't care if anyone thinks less of it. Watching tv is a huge escape of reality for me, and I need escapes like that quite often.

I watch tv because it's entertaining, but most of the time it's because I'm depressing. It's a good way to get away from the things in my or anyone's life in general.

I don't know if it's my internet connection or not, but YouTube has been acting like a real slow whore lately. The past three or four days, I haven't been able to watch any videos. I hope I'm not the only one this is happening too...?

All I want to do is watch Blair/Chuck fan videos, is that really too much to ask?

:(

I'm such a homebody. There is nothing I love more than just chilling at home, doing homework, watching tv or surfing the net. I know that sounds pathetic, but it's just who I am. So I think I'd prefer that over a road trip. Road trips are fun and all, but you have to think about how long it'll take, money and all that other fun stuff.

If it's something real serious that could affect my entire life, I go to my grandfather. He's a very wise and smart man. My real father hasn't been there for my entire life and I always depend on my grandfather for very serious matters in my life.

But I usually I go on instinct. Many of my choices haven't been smart I'll admit that, but I don't think the instincts I go with are wrong. I don't think that makes much sense, but I go with my gut feeling and I'm proud of that decision.

I need new icons but I can't decide which icon maker.

As of late, noone is fanning me over their icons. Shit, I'm like not into fandoms much right now, but my inner self is saying YOU NEED NEW ICONS. The only ones I'm digging are stock icons, but man there are so many out there.

Ugh, I'm so strange.

I wish I could make all the fake people in my life disappear forever.

IT'S my fault that people are in my life. I'm too nice, forgiving and understanding. I wish I couldn't be... but how else would be people find ways of screwing me over....?

Forgiveness shouldn't be granted to those that don't deserve it. Or those that don't work hard for it.

This is directed specifically at one person, who claims I'm his best friend, but yet acts like a complete asshole after my birthday. I'm really tired of it. And especially him, coming to me when things go wrong in HIS life. Fuck that. I'm not a doormat. Yes, I'm a great person and a good friend, but FUCK YOU. Get through things yourself and if you plan on being a good friend, BE ONE. Don't be a dickhead, and intend on being MY friend longer than a week. Shit........


Maybe a new layout will take me out of bitch mode.

I want to cry.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm turning 26. I can't take it. I don't want to be 30 in 4 years.

Please, God, if you love me turn back the time. Or let me be 16 again.

I promise to be a good girl for the rest of the year. Just don't make me old.


UGH.


YOU make not think it's a big deal, but it is for me.

I also have a final tomorrow and that makes my day even more brilliant. Ugh, I can't wait til this summer is over.

The only good thing that could happen is if Ed Westwick just happened to jump into my world tomorrow.

Such a cruel world we live in.

I've been listening to the Pierces a lot lately. If you haven't heard of them, then you should.

They are definitely worth a download or fifty.

It isn't always the easiest of situations.

I think it really depends on how that relationship was and how said couple ended things. I'm a very forgiving person and I want to believe the best in people.

So with me, I've tried remaining friends with both my ex's. I've had about 4 real serious boyfriends, but the last two I had were the most meaningful ones to me. With Chris, it was really easy. I met him when I was 18 and were friends before, and even though the way it ended was a sleazy thing for him to do, I've always been able to be real good friends with him. It's easy because he didn't always treat me badly. And after it ended I found myself getting over him and forgiving him rather quickly. Of course, at the same time I found myself rebound very quickly with Rick.

But trying to be friends with Rick? Oh fuck. That has always been hard for me to do. LOL we had been so off and on for years. And our relationship was so unhealthy and hard. When he really broke up with me in Sept of O8 it was difficult. In that case, I had to cut off all communications with him... he's the hardest person I have ever had to get over. But then he found himself wanting to be friends and yada yada. It was an endless of should they or shouldn't be friends. Cause regardless, we were always drawn back to each other. LOL and now we are friends again, but only cuz the girl he was seeing dumped him. It's hard for me to be friends with him. I'm always going to feel for him, and that isn't good. But I choose when I'm friends with Rick.

Sorry I went into detail, but I'm just sharing my experiences. Like I said, it depends on how the relationship ended and how intense you guys were. It always isn't easy, and it can be done.

Last FM is fucking addicting.

I spend more time on there than on LJ lately.

I'm getting annoyed.

I've been waiting almost a week for my Dell laptop to be delivered to me and the day is finally here and it's not delivered on time. I'm going to cry if I don't get it today. :( They need to hurry up. I'm going to be hella busy this weekend and week. I haven't even had any time to fuck around on the internet. :(

Others can try to compare, but they will fail miserably.

I'm not a graphics person by any means. However, I'm very curious to try and find out how to make GIF animations. My question to those of you who make graphics: what program would I use? I'm assuming one would use Photoshop. I tried downloading a version yesterday, but was acting like a douche to me.

Any other suggestions? This would be very helpful to me.

I went and got a twitter. Bad me lol. I got tired of hearing about it and went and got one myself.

Please add me. I don't have friends that use this. Maybe one has it but he never logs in.

http://twitter.com/peachykin

Today was a spectacular day indeed.

I went to my morning class and then proceeded to go into work and was FUCKING FIRED FROM MY JOB

I put up with so much bullshit from my job. I was let go due to cash shortages, yes, I made a mistake. But this is the WORST fucking time to be let go from a job where I worked my ass off and got nothing in fucking return. I never stole any money from this place, it feels as if that's why I was fired. Well, that wasn't the fucking case. I'd rather be poor than steal money from an ungrateful craft store. Fuck this man. I quit my last job because of my douchey ex and in turn I got dumped by him in turn leading a MISERABLE FUCKING life for 1 year and took a pay cut. I'm just starting to realize that I'm never going to get to have an easy life with things NOT going my way.



:(